I had a discussion with my roommate about relationships and jealousy last night.

I wish I could open up to people more. I tell Jeremy pretty much every thought I have, which means he’s the unlucky one that gets to hear for the millionth time about how much I hate Samy. and since there haven’t been any new developments on that front for a few months, I end up repeating myself over and over again

and while I love talking to him and sharing everything with him, I know that it’d also be good to have an outside opinion. last night’s conversation was actually a year overdue. I felt especially upset one night last November, and I came so close to spilling my thoughts out to this roommate. we were the only ones home. my boyfriend was either eating dinner or watching a movie with his ex-girlfriend that night, which was causing me to freak out majorly. my other roommates were out. and then before I could gather the nerve to ask this one roommate about her experiences with jealousy, she left for the night

she didn’t know I was upset, or she wouldn’t have left. I burst into tears almost immediately after the door closed. I remember pacing back and forth in the kitchen, trying to get my breathing under control. that day was the last time I cut myself, which is pretty good — it’s been almost a year now, which is the longest streak I’ve had since I started in 2010 (?)

my roommate could’ve helped me out so much had I simply spoken up. she could totally relate, and she would’ve listened to me. last night felt therapeutic in a way, but it also made me realize how stupid I was last year

with regards to samy, I don’t know why I still care about this. I feel so much resentment and anger and jealousy and I don’t know why these emotions are so strong. I literally haven’t seen the girl since June

I am so fucking exhausted

summary of my Friday (autocorrected to grody, interestingly enough) night:

- I am taking drunk selfies while lying down 
- I am going to cook pasta now
- some random homeless dude near north station said “ni hao” as I walked by, and I told him to fuck off
- some really hammered dude told me he liked my skirt, except what he really said was “hey, I like your scoo-sker… your school skirt… your catholic skirt, the catholic school skirt”, which he slurred as he exited the train
- I just returned from college night at the museum of science and I feel really good because I met up with some friends there

summary of my Friday (autocorrected to grody, interestingly enough) night:

- I am taking drunk selfies while lying down
- I am going to cook pasta now
- some random homeless dude near north station said “ni hao” as I walked by, and I told him to fuck off
- some really hammered dude told me he liked my skirt, except what he really said was “hey, I like your scoo-sker… your school skirt… your catholic skirt, the catholic school skirt”, which he slurred as he exited the train
- I just returned from college night at the museum of science and I feel really good because I met up with some friends there

I like helping friends and comforting them when they’re upset, but seeing them cry makes me cry, and that makes me feel like a failure

i’m so much more content than i’ve ever been in my life, and i’m so fucking bored

cloudstreamer:

videohall:

Goat gives it all it’s got

goat: mwaahh

dude: aww, that’s so wimpy, come on, give it all you got! GO!

goat: mwaAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!

dude: yeaaah

random-reality-shifts:

I bought that for her and it’s so cool I’m the best she’s pretty cool too

random-reality-shifts:

I bought that for her and it’s so cool I’m the best she’s pretty cool too

piplump:

Pros and cons of boys:

  • Con: They’re dicks
  • Pro: Their dicks

(Source: piplump)

transitmaps:

Fantasy Map: Mock-Up Boston MBTA Map Spotted in LA for Filming
Posted by Seiji Tanaka on his Twitter account, here’s a fictional MBTA map at an LA Metro station for film/TV shooting. The map is at the fictional “Rockwater” station on the equally fictional Yellow Line (replacing the real world Orange Line).
We’ve covered fictional transit maps from TV shows and movies before (this weird DC Metro map from the TV show “Leverage” springs to mind), but I don’t think I’ve ever seen one where the prop designers have just downloaded and edited the official map, which is obviously what has happened here. What’s more, it’s been edited really badly.
The blue water and white background of the official map has been removed and the whole map has been placed on a grey/beige background instead… but all the white boxes behind bus route numbers and white keylines around the route lines that were used to separate them from other elements are still in place. Which means there’s a lot of weird, random white elements on the map for no apparent reason. There are also ferry routes, but no water for them to sail across.
Most of the commuter rail routes have been removed, but not all of the stations: Yawkey is just floating in the middle of the map by itself, for example, and interchange stations still retain their extra “blob” for commuter rail platforms.
The real-life Blue line is now Purple, the Green Line is now Blue (with all sorts of branch name errors) and the Orange Line is now Yellow. This line has also had all of its station names changed, mostly to very un-Bostonian names, like “San Jacomo” and “Cabrerra”. Is this the MBTA or Grand Theft Auto? To me, this suggests that this part of the map might feature a little more prominently in whatever scenes it is featured in.
Yes, I know that these maps tend to appear fleetingly in the background of whatever show they’re used in, so it’s a little unfair to subject them to the same scrutiny as a real transit map, but this one struck me as particularly odd, seeing as it’s so directly and obviously based off the official map (it even has the crossed-out station icon for Government Center).
P.S. Anyone know what TV show/movie this prop is from?

this is godawful, and i love it.  goodbye ruggles, and hello dalesboro!

transitmaps:

Fantasy Map: Mock-Up Boston MBTA Map Spotted in LA for Filming

Posted by Seiji Tanaka on his Twitter account, here’s a fictional MBTA map at an LA Metro station for film/TV shooting. The map is at the fictional “Rockwater” station on the equally fictional Yellow Line (replacing the real world Orange Line).

We’ve covered fictional transit maps from TV shows and movies before (this weird DC Metro map from the TV show “Leverage” springs to mind), but I don’t think I’ve ever seen one where the prop designers have just downloaded and edited the official map, which is obviously what has happened here. What’s more, it’s been edited really badly.

The blue water and white background of the official map has been removed and the whole map has been placed on a grey/beige background instead… but all the white boxes behind bus route numbers and white keylines around the route lines that were used to separate them from other elements are still in place. Which means there’s a lot of weird, random white elements on the map for no apparent reason. There are also ferry routes, but no water for them to sail across.

Most of the commuter rail routes have been removed, but not all of the stations: Yawkey is just floating in the middle of the map by itself, for example, and interchange stations still retain their extra “blob” for commuter rail platforms.

The real-life Blue line is now Purple, the Green Line is now Blue (with all sorts of branch name errors) and the Orange Line is now Yellow. This line has also had all of its station names changed, mostly to very un-Bostonian names, like “San Jacomo” and “Cabrerra”. Is this the MBTA or Grand Theft Auto? To me, this suggests that this part of the map might feature a little more prominently in whatever scenes it is featured in.

Yes, I know that these maps tend to appear fleetingly in the background of whatever show they’re used in, so it’s a little unfair to subject them to the same scrutiny as a real transit map, but this one struck me as particularly odd, seeing as it’s so directly and obviously based off the official map (it even has the crossed-out station icon for Government Center).

P.S. Anyone know what TV show/movie this prop is from?

this is godawful, and i love it.  goodbye ruggles, and hello dalesboro!

it feels like fall today!  it is so cool outside, and i am excited.  i’ve never really liked summer, so i’m glad it’s finally ending

i’m actually feeling pretty okay tonight.  i got a haircut today and i feel pretty cute.  i just took a shower and i feel clean.  i’m sitting at my kitchen table, talking to my roommates and ‘studying’.  i had a pretty long and in depth discussion with jeremy about various relationship things, and everything feels great there too

i’m happy.

i need better things to obsess over at 3 am

there are some days that i think my hatred for/jealousy of samy is 420% justified.

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